I just found CEA-HOW after someone in another program suggested it to me. I am attending a group in Spanish (the language of my parents) and I love it! I have been in OA for many years and released 34 lbs in 2008 working with a great sponsor. But I wanted to graduate and after my father and the father of my children passed and 8 other people in 18 month period, I went out again. I gained 15 lbs and knew I needed help because as the BB says, the disease only gets worse . . . never better.
I started working on my CEA-HOW program in October 2011 and in a month I released 12 lbs. I was happy and very excited. But again, self-will came in and I didn't want to follow my sponsors suggestions with the grains after the first 30 days. I also realized that I was using this program as a "diet" and lost the weight, but like with most diets, when I'm not "on" it, the weight comes back on.
Getting honest, I was also chewing sugar-free gum complusively, drinking tea with milk and splenda complusively, diet soda and obessing about my sugar-free jello during those first 30 days, which are all allowed. I basically switched addictions and it wasn't helping in the long run. I wasn't using these items in a moderate way.
Christmas was my last binge (please God let it be my last). I started back on the sugar and flour and couldn't stop. I also see how my relaspe was a process, those little lies I tell myself: "Oh, I can have just one bite." "It's okay to eat in front of the TV." "Oh, I don't need to weigh and measure my milk for my tea."
I was sick to my stomach and on so much less than I normally would have eaten during my past binges. The saddest part was that I was holding my new granddaughter (3 months old) and I couldn't enjoy her as much because I was in so much stomach pain.
The next morning I got on the scale and was up 4lbs in a month (doesn't sound like much but to a gratefully recovering compulsive overeater/anorexic and bulimic, it seemed like 100 lbs!)
I also got on a marathon OA call and got abstinent (thank you God!). This time, I wanted to be as disciplined as the program requires, I honestly weighed and measured everthing, I committed to stop chewing sugar free gum, using splenda or drinking diet sodas, a couple days later the gum and splenda started "calling" and I knew I needed help, I cannot do this on my own. I called my CEA-HOW sponsor and humbly asked her to be my sponsor again (after I had fired her). She graciously agreed and I call her daily.
I wanted to weigh myself on New Year's day and I discovered that without even trying I released (gave back) 6 lbs. Wow! I was surprised and thankful.
I feel great, look great and the great news is that I feel the joy and happiness from the inside out! Folks even say that I "look" younger than my 50 years!
I'm going to keep coming back, so grateful to share this with you!! I would love to hear your story.